The great awakening

But as I had forsaken all the priests, so I left the separate preachers also and those esteemed the most experienced people, for I saw there was none among them all who could speak to my condition. When all my hopes in them and in all men were gone, so that I had nothing outwardly to help me nor could tell what to do, then oh! then I heard a voice which said "There is one, even Christ Jesus, that can speak to thy condition"; and when I heard it my heart did leap for joy. Then the Lord let me see why there was none upon the earth that could speak to my condition, namely, that I might give him all the glory-that Jesus Christ might have the pre-eminence-who enlightens and gives grace and faith and power. Thus when God does work, who shall hinder it? And this I knew by experience.

My desires after the Lord grew stronger, and zeal in the pure knowledge of God and of Christ alone. Then the Lord gently led me along, and let me see his love which was endless and eternal, surpassing all the knowledge that men have in the natural state or can obtain from history or books.

When I myself was in the deep, under all shut up, I could not believe that I should ever overcome; my troubles, my sorrows, my temptations were so great that I thought many times I should have despaired, I was so tempted. But when Christ opened to me how he was tempted by the same devil, and overcame him and bruised his head, and that through him and his power, light, grace and spirit I should overcome also, I had confidence in him. So he it was that opened to me, when I was shut up and had no hope nor faith. Christ it was (who had enlightened me) that gave me his light to believe in; and gave me hope, which is himself, revealed himself in me, gave me his spirit and gave me his grace, which I found sufficient in the deeps and weakness. Thus, in the deepest miseries and in the greatest sorrows and temptations that many times beset me, the Lord in his mercy did keep me.